A is for Axhsausted!

Graaahhh!

My novel isn’t cooperating, talked my webcomic over with a friend who is giving me suggestions on what to do, and though it’s all such good advice I feel like my brain has hit a wall. While I wearily feel like I have so much more to learn about this medium’s brand of storytelling, my sci-fi main character is poking her head out and asking, “Since they’re being annoying, can I come out now?”

It’s probably cuz I am exhausted. I need to finish reading some library books that indirectly have to do with my writing (reading them for fun AND for researching/writing style purposes), and tonight I am just so sleepy.

This probably means I need to let the writing stew for a while, which is good, so I can finish the books before April. I just wish everything wasn’t so fussy at the same time. I demand the best I can out of myself, and sometimes it takes a lot out of me. Like tonight. Oy.

I will say this, though. As I’ve lived on my own, grown a little, matured, I’ve started to realize that I can’t pour every good idea into the magnum opus fantasy series I’ve been working on for years. Eventually it will overflow with too much content. So I’ve started saving bits I like for different projects. After years of being hyper-focused on my baby, I’m suddenly having hundreds of ideas again, like Jo March in Little Women, who has a delightful quote (which escapes me) about having a bunch of different stories in her head all at once!

I used to be like this when I was younger, before I took on writing especially seriously, and to be honest I came to miss the many plots and characters from different universes running around in my head, like a giant house with many rooms echoing with the sound of happy voices. At first, once I started letting go the past few months, I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to devote as much attention to my pet project. But now I see there is enough love to go around 😀 This pleases me muchly.

And so goodnight. I have a bed murmuring “I have sleep for you” (*cough* Anne of Green Gables *cough*), speaking wordless volumes about comfy mattresses and downy comforters. Zzzz…